WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS!

Sitting here thinking...
Letting the thoughts go through my mind...
Uncontrolled, like the Bundesautobahn, they whirl pass, each pounding my head and heart with like fiery darts from the devil's bows...
And it hurts, like hell it does!
And I'm thinking, why do you always do this? Why do you always cause me pain? Why? Why?? Why are you like this????

I wish my eyes were blind and my ears deaf
I wish the things you do were never impressed on my memory.
I wish there were no witnesses and constant reminders!
I wish I could pretend it didn't happen.
I wish! I wish!! I wish all I had to do was only wish!!!

And now you can't even see
you don't even know
the damage you caused
because your eyes are blind... They see only what you want.
Your heart is hardened... It only feels for itself.

I do this in pain
my heart bleeds for you.
But this I must do... I must keep praying and hoping that you will change.
That's why I love you, that's why I care...